Firsts

Wow every where I turn I learn of another mommy who is going to be blessed with a new little one to love. The first few months after we lost Elias I would hear of women being pregnant and it would make me just want to crawl into a hole and die. Now it gives me that little bit of excitement as I remember all of my pregnancies. The first time you see the pink line and really can't believe you have a little one growing inside of you. The first time you hear the heartbeat, the first time you feel the little flutters, then the kicks. The first time you feel that contraction that lets you now you are truly in labor. All those firsts with each pregnancy are so exciting. And then that first time you lay eyes on your beautiful child, something you will never forget.

So even though I am not pregnant I will remember all of my firsts just like all these mommies are doing with their pregnancies. And just someday I will be having all those firsts with a new little bundle of my own.

But for now I will enjoy the memories and make new ones with my 7 miracles that the Lord has blessed us with here on earth.

Weight Gain

O.k. so today is weigh in day and I wasn't even going to weigh in, because this week I did terrible. Then I figured I can't just blog about my wight loss I need to be honest and share everything. The good weeks and the bad weeks. So here is my bad week.
Last week 137.8
This week 138.8
OOPS! I put on a pound. I will work harder this week and I hope to be back down next week.

It is QUIET

Right now it is extremely QUIET in my house.

The older children are at piano with Dad. The three younger ones are upstairs taking naps because they don't feel well. So the house is nice and quiet. Now I sit here and wonder what should I do. Nothing I think I will spend some time talking with the Lord.

The Lord knows Best

About a week ago I asked everyone to pray about a job promotion for hubby. We had both said we Love you Lord either way promotion or no promotion. At this same time we were praying that maybe this would be the month that I would find out I was expecting again. So again we prayed and said we Love you Lord baby or no baby.

So at the end of the week we found out that there would be no promotion and also no baby this month. We went out to dinner and talked and laughed and both said "We love you Lord!" I am learning through this process of trusting God that it sure is easy to trust Him when everything goes our way, but do we still trust Him when things go His way. Yes we do but sometimes there is a little heartache, and He knows how we feel. I am just thankful that the God I serve is a big God who loves me and does know what is best for us. Through this past week of No's He did surprise us with a huge blessing.

Someone decided to bless us by paying off the rest of our hospital bill. Praise the Lord he takes care of everything. Thankful that the Lord doesn't always give us everything we ask for. I have grown closer to God these past 6 months than I think in my whole life.
Thanks Lord for holding me up and being my Father , I couldn't have done this without you.

Reaghan is 10!!!!

Where have these last ten years gone? I can't believe my little Reaghan Mae is 10. I will never forget the day I found out I was pregnant with her. I was shocked to say the least but what a beautiful blessing she has been to our family. So thankful the Lord gives us gifts when we least expect them because I think those are sometimes the best.
Happy birthday Reaghan. Have a very blessed 10th year. I love you Mommy.

Safe in The Arms of Jesus

Friday it will be 6 months since we lost our little Elias. Where has the time gone.
This week has been a great week for both Daddy and I. We picked out the headstone and it will be at the cemetery before Memorial day. I hope we can get up to South Dakota that weekend and see it. I am very excited about this because I feel like there is some closure.

As soon as we get a picture of the memorial I will post a picture.

This is what we had engraved on it.

Elias Arthur Lee Jensen
October 23rd, 2010
Safe in the Arms of Jesus

Weigh in Day

Weigh in day again for me. I didn't have a great week but I have received my 5% goal from weight watchers. So I am still losing it just is getting slower.
Last week 138.6
This week 137.8
Total lost this week .8 lbs. Not a whole lot but at least it was a loss.

7.8 lbs to go to reach my goal. 8 weeks left until vacation I am going to be cutting it really close.