Where has the time gone. I just looked at my ticker and my days are now in the 30's. I have had some emotional days lately and I am sure it is just because I am getting closer. I don't even know if I can explain how I have been feeling. Guilt is one word. Which I know guilt is not from the Lord so I am really working through this. I feel guilty that this little boy gets to be born and be a part of our family. I have those questions again and don't understand why Elias never made it.
Questions. I know these are all questions I will never have an answer for, and even when I get to Heaven it won't matter. So why do I worry and wonder about this, well because I am human and it still hurts. I wonder what it will be like to hold this little one in my arms. Will I have that same feeling as I have with all the other ones, or will I question why he is here and not Elias. I know this sounds crazy but this is how I feel. I am praying and asking God to see me through this, which I know he will. It has just been a little different this time.
3 comments:
All will be well dear Sister, all will be well. When you hold this new one, things will be easier - God will see to it, I'm certain.
By the way - I'm back over at my blog, with new posts.
well, we will see you holding your new son soon, and then we can all spoil him!!!!!! He is already loved and beautiful....handsome young man....... thank you Lord love nana C
I am struggling with the same feelings. I am so in Love with our new baby, but I feel guilty for loving him and feeling like he's a replacement for our Ireland Elizabeth. I am praying through this and know without a doubt in my mind that the Lord gave us him, and there is no guilt in him.
Praying for you and your upcoming blessing.
Jessica
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