This post is a difficult one for me but it is also a healing post at the same time.
This past week our family suffered a loss that was sad but has also focused our eyes back on the Lord. We were expecting baby number seven around the end of May 2008 but we lost the baby this past week. I want you all to know that I am doing fine physically and emotionally.
I have to say that I have been blessed with two years of growing closer to the Lord and I believe that is part of why I have been able to go through this without having a major breakdown. I know that I have been carried by my Lord and Savior. The first night I started spotting I cried out to God and told Him that I couldn't do this by myself. I told God He would have to carry me through this. Let me tell you all something He is a good God because my feet have not touched the ground since that night, He has been carrying me this whole time.
I want to also thank my husband for being my shoulder during this past week. Most of you all know that we moved here from Phoenix and I still don't have the ties that I had in Phoenix. Well I found I didn't need my friends to get me through this I had a wonderful husband who loved me and protected me. He has let me cry when I needed to cry, he held me when I needed to be held, he prayed over me when I needed it the most but couldn't do it myself, he has been my friend through all of this.
One more thing I want to say is that I have not once gotten mad at God. He is a good God and wants only good things for his children. Remember this in hard times and let him carry you it is so much easier than trying to carry yourself. We have named our baby "Charlie" and can't wait to hold our baby in heaven someday. We love you Carlie and know you are well taken care of.