Those who plant in tears will harvest SHOUTS OF JOY. They weep as they plant their seed, but they sing as they return with the HARVEST.

Psalm 126:5-6

Friday, January 28, 2011

Mommy's Lap Went Bye-Bye

The other night after dinner we were all sitting around the table talking about our day and Levi was reading books in his chair. We have created a bad habit with him and we are now trying to correct it. For some reason whenever he was finished eating we would just let him down, which we have never done with any of the other children. Now we have to retrain him to sit at the table until everyone else is done.

So the other night he sat like such a big boy and everyone was done so daddy told him he could get down. He came running to me and said,"Yap mommy, Yap."

I looked at him and said," Honey Mommy's lap went bye , bye." It really has gone and I have no more room for him to sit on my lap.

He looked at me with a very serious look on his face. Lifted up my skirt to see my legs and got really excited and said," It's back mommy, it's back."

It was so cute and priceless that I had to let him sit on my lap just one more time. But no more because he just squishes the baby which is very uncomfortable for mommy.

In about a month my lap will be back and Levi can sit on it all he wants.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Getting Closer

Where has the time gone. I just looked at my ticker and my days are now in the 30's. I have had some emotional days lately and I am sure it is just because I am getting closer. I don't even know if I can explain how I have been feeling. Guilt is one word. Which I know guilt is not from the Lord so I am really working through this. I feel guilty that this little boy gets to be born and be a part of our family. I have those questions again and don't understand why Elias never made it.

Questions. I know these are all questions I will never have an answer for, and even when I get to Heaven it won't matter. So why do I worry and wonder about this, well because I am human and it still hurts. I wonder what it will be like to hold this little one in my arms. Will I have that same feeling as I have with all the other ones, or will I question why he is here and not Elias. I know this sounds crazy but this is how I feel. I am praying and asking God to see me through this, which I know he will. It has just been a little different this time.

Friday, January 7, 2011

What a Blessing

I love it when my children bless me with their service. I feel very blessed right now. I just came home from the library with the 4 little ones and walked into a newly cleaned house. It smelled good and looked great. They wanted to surprise me and have it all done before I got home. The upstairs and basement is all that is left and they are working hard on doing that right now. What a blessing to have children who see when something needs to be done and puts there hand to it. I told them you will be blessed for this.

I sometimes struggle on a daily basis as to whether or not we are doing the right thing. Most days are very time consuming with homeschooling and just simple things as keeping Christ the center of all we do. It is on days like this I see the fruit and thank the Lord He took us down this path, and that we chose to be obedient and listen to his calling.

Children are a blessing and a gift from the Lord. I often for get this is in our daily routine but it is so true.

Monday, January 3, 2011

What will 2011 Hold?

2011, what will it hold for our family? I am not really sure but one thing I am sure about is whatever it holds it will be what God has planned. With daddy getting ready to graduate in May he is beginning to do the dreaded job search and possible relocation for our family. I was a little anxious at first, but have taken this to the Lord and I am feeling confident that no matter where God takes us He will be with us.

Not many of us like change and I am the first to admit that I am one of them. I am content to live here where we are but I also want to be where the Lord wants us, and it may not be where I think it should be. At church on Sunday the men gave their testimonies for the year and it was amazing to see how God is working in people's lives. It is amazing to see how many of us struggle with the same issues, letting God lead us, trusting that God knows what is best, having hope when things are rough, etc. I see that we all have hard times but I also see one common theme we all get stronger through those times. So even though I don't know what this year holds, good or bad I know in the end God has a plan and I know it is a good plan. So right now I will Wait on the Lord and see where he takes our family. Like a friend told me one day look at it as an adventure. That is what I am going to do.