Those who plant in tears will harvest SHOUTS OF JOY. They weep as they plant their seed, but they sing as they return with the HARVEST.



Psalm 126:5-6

Saturday, August 30, 2008

I'm so Excited!!!!

I am sooooo excited!!!! We have been in the stone ages for a long time and we finally are out of them. Our computer was at least 8 years old and was as slow as molasses. We had no sound and I hated to be on it. Trying new things with my blog was just not going to happen on this old dinosaur. Well we were blessed with a new computer and we are now like other normal families. So the main reason I am so excited is that I got on to my favorite blogs tonight and I was able to hear the music. I felt like a kid in a candy store. The more I found with music the giddier I got. I have been missing out on so much and now I can't wait to do that to mine. So hopefully now that we are out of the dark ages my blog will get to looking a little more interesting. Give me some time maybe after baby comes but i am definitely going to change some things.

Friday, August 29, 2008

Getting Closer

I am now getting to the point in my pregnancy where I feel like I am going to be pregnant forever. I look at the little baby ticker on my blog and get so excited to see the days ticking away. I can't believe that in hopefully less than 13 days I will be holding my newest child. I feel like I have waited so long. I have also realized how Gracious God is to our family. He blessed us immediately after the miscarriage with another baby and everything has been just perfect this pregnancy. As my husband and I were talking the other night we were trying to pick out names and we found one that stuck out to us because it meant "God is Gracious." right away my hubby said that is perfect he has been so gracious to us by giving us another baby. We still have not decided yet but it is a good possibility. We will let you all know when baby comes.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Things are still the same.

Well nothing has changed here. I saw the midwife again today and everything looks just fine. Now it truly is just a waiting game and trusting God to bring the baby in His time. I really am tired of being pregnant and am getting excited about holding our new little one. At night I lay in bed and look at the babies bed and imagine the baby laying there. It really is exciting bringing a new life into the world. And I find that it doesn't matter how many times you do it the excitement is just as grand every time.

All the girls are getting very anxious and there favorite question for me is "Mom are you having contractions?" I am getting a little tired of hearing that but I am excited to see their excitement. So for now I have not a whole lot to say other than hopefully this baby comes real soon. So keep checking back because I will try to post when I am in labor so I have prayers sent up for baby and me.
Thanks everyone.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Our First Dose of Labor

We had our first dose of labor the other day and I forget how disappointing it is when it stops. You are so excited to have the baby and your contractions start and you fell really good and it goes on for about 5 or 6 hours and then it stops. Well that is what happened to me on Tuesday. I went to lay down for my nap at 1:00p.m. and could not get comfortable. It started out as what I thought was just an achy back and then it went into contractions . My midwife was scheduled to come for an appointment so I was very thankful that I would be able to talk to her and let her know what was going on. Everything was going great and I was beginning to get more and more uncomfortable and then about 10:00p.m. I started feeling some relief. I thought to myself it is going to stop. Of course it did and I fell asleep about midnight. I just keep telling myself it was not God's time for us to have the baby.

Since I started having my babies at home 6 years ago I have learned a lot about how the Lord wants us to look at childbirth. It is not about us being comfortable or about the Doctor picking the day so he can have the weekend off. It is all about letting God be in control and sometimes that does mean being uncomfortable, and it does mean going overdue, or having three episodes of labor before the baby finally comes. The one great thing about this is the day you hold that baby in your arms it was so worth all of it. I know it giving God control of everything is very difficult but I have learned through this phase of my life it is the best choice I could ever make. So all of you out there who read my blog please don't be surprised if I write about more than one of these episodes. But God is in control so the next time might be it we just never know. I just know that I will "wait upon the Lord." through this and all will turn out glorious.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Counting Down

Yeah!!!! I am so excited!!!!!! The Birth Kit has arrived. It is now official, there is no turning back we are going to have a baby soon and Mommy is really excited. I think I have been in a little bit of denial about this birth. I couldn't really grab onto it and picture having another baby in the house. I have been excited since the day I found out but also a little nervous with it happening so quickly after the miscarriage. I praised God and was so happy to know that he was blessing us with a Gift so quickly but I still was a little gun shy.
It has been a long year for all of us. Last September I found out I was pregnant and for some reason that baby was taken home to be with the Lord in early November. I had to rest in God and have Hope in Him, and nothing else to get through that sad time. Now almost a year later of finding out about the pregnancy in September I will be giving birth to a precious baby who will live with us here on earth. What a great God we serve. As I sit and write this I long to know and hold Baby Charlie. I know in my heart I will someday so for now I just rest in the Lord and am thankful for the baby I will be holding very soon. I sit here and cry and am not sure why, tears of Joy and sorrow mixed together. I do know one thing I am officially excited and can't wait to share with all of you the blessed day it will be once this baby arrives.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

The Midwife Appt.

It seems to be that I am the point in my pregnancy where all I write about is being pregnant. I am so sorry and please forgive me. Before long all I will be writing about is the new baby and then you will get sick of that. I will try to find some other topics in the near future.

Well I just had to let you all know that I saw the midwife yesterday and everything went really well. It actually went better than I could have hoped for. Baby is already down and in position. She was actually a little surprised at how far down baby was. Which was encouraging for me because for about a week and a half I have been having contractions on and off and they have been pretty good lately. They are even starting to go around to my lower back. Which means my body is doing something. Now don't get to excited I do this for about a month before I have mt babies but I really think this baby will be coming in August and not September. I am not going to get my hopes up but it is encouraging to know that this will soon be coming to an end and that i will be holding my precious gift in hopefully a couple of weeks. I will keep you all posted.

I have been doing some strange things lately. Tonight I was in the back yard on the ladder trimming trees. So we will have to see .....