Today we went with some friends of ours to their church to visit on Fellowship Sunday. We have been going with them every once in a while for the past year. It is a wonderful church and we really enjoy the times that we have gone. Today was especially great because the Pastor was talking about Fear and spiritual warfare. The one thing he said that I know to be true but I have not been focusing on is that God does not give us a Spirit of Fear. We all know that but have you ever been some place at a certain time and it just hits like a brick in the head. Well that was what happened to me today. It was as if God was speaking directly to me. I know it seems like something little but Fear can paralyze you and keep you in bondage. That is how I have been feeling lately about this birth. Like I was paralyzed and I couldn't even begin to think of how i would get through it. My two older children shared with me tonight that they had been afraid of somethings but that they were going to start going to God when those fears creep up and reading scripture. We as parents can tell our kids these things but I think sometimes they need to hear it also from someone who they respect and hear that we as parents aren't being weird but are just trying to help them.
Well onto the fellowship part of the day. That was wonderful. My husband is really starting to open up more to the families there and we all feel real relaxed and comfortable. It is a long drive so we are just praying and trying to figure out what God wants us to do in this situation. We are going to start with once a month and who knows God may move us to going there more often or he may close the door and move us someplace else. He knows where we are supposed to be we are just waiting and listening to Him.