Those who plant in tears will harvest SHOUTS OF JOY. They weep as they plant their seed, but they sing as they return with the HARVEST.

Psalm 126:5-6

Thursday, November 19, 2009


O.k. yesterday was a really bad day. I realized it was exactly four weeks yesterday that we learned that I had lost the baby. Might explain why I was having a bad day.

Today I wake up and I am determined it is going to be a better day. Things were going pretty well. Kids had finished school before lunch which makes it nice for all of us. We were just kind of hanging out when the mail came. Low and behold lurking in the mailbox was the BILL. The hospital bill. After looking at it and seeing what the insurance paid not really sure why we even have insurance. But then again I should be thankful we don't have to pay the full amount. I remember my dear friend Allison telling me that when we received the hospital bill it could be a difficult time. Not really sure if it makes me sad or mad. I'm mad about paying a bill and having nothing to show for it and sad that I am still dealing with anger. All I can say is the good Lord knows all and he will get us through this.


Sally said... sorry to hear that. I HATE getting bills...regardless of what they are for. But, you will get through this! God will provide. Praying for you! :)

Audrey said...

I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this. Still praying for you as you grieve your child.

abi w. said...


You continue to be in my prayers! He who called you is faithful...
who also will do it! Keep speaking TRUTH to your heart. Upholding you, and asking our Heavenly Father to carry you in His tender, loving arms! My love to you!

Raisingarrows said...

I am so sorry you lost your little one. It hurts so much and then to deal with the aftermath extras as well. {{HUGS}} After my first miscarriage, the ins. company called and told me they couldn't pay for my "birth" b/c the waiting period was still in effect.
Blessings as you heal,