Shouts of JOY

O.k. where do I start. I will start at the beginning and hopefully it will make sense.

The last couple of days I have been praying and talking to God more than usual. which is a good thing. I am trying to build my relationship with Him again. So lately I have been talking with Him about the Whys and How Come baby Elias never took a breath on this earth. Well of course I am not getting a direct answer because I know the answer and it is for me to not understand everything about God. He is the one who put this world into motion and I am sure He will always know more than me, in fact I am positive He knows more than I do.

So I have really been trying not to have a pity party and sit in this lonely place. I want to be happy and joyful again. I also know that is what the lord wants for me. So I was talking to a dear friend today and I was telling her I know He loves me, I know he wants the best for me, and I know He gives me the desires of my heart, but what I don't understand is why do we continue to suffer sometimes for so long. She so graciously told me this was an area that i would have to ponder and come to grips with on my own. Instead of telling me what she believes she lovingly told me this is what I believe and I don't know if i am wrong or right. I needed to hear this at this time so I could search out God on my own.

Well when I got home I was sitting at the computer and decided to pick up my husbands One Year Mini Devotional for Men. I thought I would read the devotion for the day. And let me tell you when God speaks He speaks very clearly.

This is what he said to me:

THOSE WHO PLANT IN TEARS WILL HARVEST WITH SHOUTS OF JOY. THEY WEEP AS THEY GO TO PLANT THEIR SEED, BUT THEY SING AS THEY RETURN WITH THE HARVEST. PSALM 126:5-6

Praise the Lord. I have planted many tears during this season, but wow what a harvest I have to look forward to. The promises of God are truly amazing and it is amazing how He shows them to you when you really need them.

A New Week

It's the start of a new week and I am looking forward to it being a good one. Our fifth daughter has a birthday at the end of this week and she will be 6. I can't believe it I really don't know where the time has gone. When we moved here to Iowa she was only a year and a half and now she is going to be 6 I really can't believe it. So this week I am going to keep my eyes focused up, and listen to His truths, and try to get through this week with lots of JOY, JOY, JOY.

I Just Don't Understand

Well the month of February is now on the down side. I really don't know where the time goes. My mom shared with me some very sad news the other day. A lady whom she goes to church with just found out that her son's wife had lost there baby. The mom was due in late March just like I was and it brought back many memories that were not easy for me. It saddens me that so many women are losing there babies. Many of these women are young and no one knows what happened. This mom was ready to have a healthy baby in just a few weeks and the next thing she knows all of her dreams are shattered. Her life will never be the same. I don't know her name but it doesn't matter I will pray for her right now, as this is going to be a difficult time for her. Not really sure what is going on in this world we live in but it is really hard for me to understand why this happening more and more.

The Mountain

Today it is cloudy and gray outside. That is kind of how I feel like my life has been for awhile. No one tells you of the emptiness you will have when you have lost a baby. No matter how far along you were that was your child that you never got to hold.

I have a wonderful woman in my life who is working with me to see what I am lacking. We no longer live in the Garden and eat the way God intended us to eat. Our body sometimes is trying to tell us that something is not working right. I believe that is what mine has been and is trying to do. We have discovered one area that will be very easy to work on and I pray that the Lord will continue to show us and heal my body of these minor deficiencies. The Lord has plans for His people,plans to prosper them and not harm them. He will see you through your times of need and if you listen He will call your name and pull you up out of that valley that you are in. It may be very slowly but He will bring you back to the mountain. I am ready to be back on the mountain, I sure hope the Lord is ready to put me there.

Deliverance

I sought the Lord and He heard me and delivered me from all my fears. Psalm 34:4

This verse speaks volumes to me. When I get scared or fearful I am going to seek God and I know that He will deliver me from my fears. Wow isn't it great to serve a Lord who does such great things for His people.