O.k. where do I start. I will start at the beginning and hopefully it will make sense.
The last couple of days I have been praying and talking to God more than usual. which is a good thing. I am trying to build my relationship with Him again. So lately I have been talking with Him about the Whys and How Come baby Elias never took a breath on this earth. Well of course I am not getting a direct answer because I know the answer and it is for me to not understand everything about God. He is the one who put this world into motion and I am sure He will always know more than me, in fact I am positive He knows more than I do.
So I have really been trying not to have a pity party and sit in this lonely place. I want to be happy and joyful again. I also know that is what the lord wants for me. So I was talking to a dear friend today and I was telling her I know He loves me, I know he wants the best for me, and I know He gives me the desires of my heart, but what I don't understand is why do we continue to suffer sometimes for so long. She so graciously told me this was an area that i would have to ponder and come to grips with on my own. Instead of telling me what she believes she lovingly told me this is what I believe and I don't know if i am wrong or right. I needed to hear this at this time so I could search out God on my own.
Well when I got home I was sitting at the computer and decided to pick up my husbands One Year Mini Devotional for Men. I thought I would read the devotion for the day. And let me tell you when God speaks He speaks very clearly.
This is what he said to me:
THOSE WHO PLANT IN TEARS WILL HARVEST WITH SHOUTS OF JOY. THEY WEEP AS THEY GO TO PLANT THEIR SEED, BUT THEY SING AS THEY RETURN WITH THE HARVEST. PSALM 126:5-6
Praise the Lord. I have planted many tears during this season, but wow what a harvest I have to look forward to. The promises of God are truly amazing and it is amazing how He shows them to you when you really need them.