Friday, May 28, 2010
I feel like yesterday was a huge milestone for me and my mom. Since I lost the baby in October I have been very careful what to say and what not to say to my mom. I have kept my guard up just because I didn't want her to worry about me. I haven't shared with her how badly i want another child because I know she is worried and scared for us. We as parents never want to see our children hurt even when they are grown. Well yesterday her and I were talking and I felt like it was the right time for me to do some sharing with her. I told her that Marc and I were ready and we felt like the children were also ready. So I told her that we had begun praying for a healthy pregnancy to go full term with a healthy child. I know she prays alot and I mean alot, so I asked her to put us on her list. I know it doesn't seem like a big deal to some but it was a turning point in my relationship with my mom. I felt like i could share my dreams with her again and i haven't felt that for awhile. So when we hung up the phone she said, "I love you and I will pray for you tonight." I love it because I know this will be bathed in prayer not only by us but also by my mom. Thanks mom for keeping the door open.