I picked up this book that I was going to read while on vacation in a couple of weeks, but I kind of started reading it. Well I didn't start I started and finished it in less than a week. It is one of those books that you can't put down. The book is"I will carry You," written by Angie Smith. It is fabulous and a great read for everyone. Angie found out when she was 18 weeks along that her baby had many health issues that would cause her to die in the womb or shortly after being born. I am sure many of you had followed her story. I had heard about her but I was pregnant and wanted to stay as far away from stories like this. I guess I thought if I got to close it might happen to my baby. How naive we are.
After losing Elias I have found many people linking to her blog so I decided to get caught up and read her story of Audrey Caroline who she decided to carry even with an outcome that was not promising. What a brave and courageous woman.
Yesterday I was reading her book and I read something that literally took my breath away. It was a prayer and I would like to share it with you.
This is what she wrote on page 153 of her book the page I will have marked for a long, long time.
Lord Jesus, I am asking for Your presence to fill the room of the person holding this book. I ask that You remind him or her that Your power is made perfect in weakness and that the battle raging against us is no match for You. In Your powerful name, I command Satan to leave this home.Leave this marriage alone. Stop whispering lies about the circumstances of death and the belief that we could have done anything differently. Silence the lies the enemy has thrown to us. You have no right here, Satan, and we rebuke you in the name of the Savior. Jesus, bind his hands so that he will no longer wreak havoc in the lives of these precious parents. We bring them to you and lay them on Your altar, eagerly awaiting the day when You will redeem what we have lost. Amen.
This prayer spoke volume to me. I immediately put my hand over my mouth and sobbed like a baby. This is exactly how I have been feeling. I know in my heart this is an attack from the devil but I don't think I was strong enough to even acknowledge it. He has come into our house many times through these last 7 months and has created lots and lots of havoc in every area. I felt like the blinders were removed yesterday. I will be saying this prayer fervently as to keep the enemy away.