We had our first dose of labor the other day and I forget how disappointing it is when it stops. You are so excited to have the baby and your contractions start and you fell really good and it goes on for about 5 or 6 hours and then it stops. Well that is what happened to me on Tuesday. I went to lay down for my nap at 1:00p.m. and could not get comfortable. It started out as what I thought was just an achy back and then it went into contractions . My midwife was scheduled to come for an appointment so I was very thankful that I would be able to talk to her and let her know what was going on. Everything was going great and I was beginning to get more and more uncomfortable and then about 10:00p.m. I started feeling some relief. I thought to myself it is going to stop. Of course it did and I fell asleep about midnight. I just keep telling myself it was not God's time for us to have the baby.
Since I started having my babies at home 6 years ago I have learned a lot about how the Lord wants us to look at childbirth. It is not about us being comfortable or about the Doctor picking the day so he can have the weekend off. It is all about letting God be in control and sometimes that does mean being uncomfortable, and it does mean going overdue, or having three episodes of labor before the baby finally comes. The one great thing about this is the day you hold that baby in your arms it was so worth all of it. I know it giving God control of everything is very difficult but I have learned through this phase of my life it is the best choice I could ever make. So all of you out there who read my blog please don't be surprised if I write about more than one of these episodes. But God is in control so the next time might be it we just never know. I just know that I will "wait upon the Lord." through this and all will turn out glorious.