Yesterday I was having a conversation with a dear friend of mine and we began to talk about trusting God. How many of us truly trust God and don't doubt Him? I think there are fewer than we think. We say we trust him but then we see an unexpected bill come in and we say to ourselves God I thought you were going to take care of me. Or you or a loved one has a sickness and you don't see the healing manifest that day so you say to yourself God I thought you said you would heal me.
Well as we were talking yesterday I realized that I want to be a person who trusts God at all times and I don't want to doubt him. I want Him to be the one in charge of every area of my life. Sometimes I felt like I was demanding things of Him and I don't want to be that way anymore. He is my Father and He knows what is best for me. I have a love in my heart for Him that I have not felt for a long time. I just want to crawl up in His lap and let Him take care of me.
I know that speaking the Word of God is very powerful, but I want to speak it to Glorify Him and not to get something from Him. He has given me everything I could ever dream of. I am promised a life with Him for eternity. I guess what I am trying to say is that I want to surrender myself completely to Him and stop trying to figure out how He is going to make it all work. With that said I feel much closer to my Lord knowing that He is in control and not I. Thank you all for letting me share and ramble on.