Hope in the Lord

I have been receiving many cards and notes of encouragement. Today the mail came and as I opened the cards one spoke directly to my heart. I am having a difficult day as it has been two years since we had our first miscarriage. I just felt down. Then I read this card "But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles." Isaiah 40:31. The first word that caught my attention was hope. Who or what do I hope in. I hope in the Lord. He will renew me no one or nothing else can do that but Him. It was so profound for m e to read that scripture. My Hope is in the Lord and he will renew me. Not sure when but what a great time for me to have Hope again.

A long Week

What a week we have had. Yesterday we drove to South Dakota to bury our son. He is buried in a little cemetery along with many other Jensen's. The first one's to come to the United States are buried there. It is neat how there are many generations all together. We do not know where we will settle so the Lord provided a resting place among other family members. Makes my heart feel good to know He is in Heaven with the lord but he is also in a place where I can go and visit him. Know it sounds weird but I really wanted some form of memorial for him. The days are long and I know they will get easier. Wanted to also say thank you to all of you who have been praying for us. We have felt the hand of God upon us many times through these past days.

Update

Just wanted to post a little update to let you know how we are all doing. My mom flew in on Sunday so the girls are very excited to have Nana here. They really needed that. I have good days and bad days which is to be expected. Marc has been my rock and has taken care of any arrangement s that have needed to be made. He sits with me when I need to cry and gives me my space when I need to be alone. This is something I wish we didn't have to go through. I don't know how long the healing will take but I know we will make it the mountain top again. I really am trying to embrace God as we walk through this valley. Not sure if I am holding onto the Lord or if i am trying to do it by myself.

Also wanted to share with all of you that we had a baby boy on Friday evening. He had already gone to be with the Lord so I know he is in a better place. Not sure why we never got to hold him here on earth. Those are things like Daddy says, "We won't understand on this side of Heaven. He was perfect he had ten fingers and ten toes. I noticed his little ears and he looked so peaceful. We named him Elias Arthur Lee. Elias I Know we will meet you in Heaven someday.

Not much to say

Not a lot to say right now. Just wanted to ask everyone to be praying for us. I started spotting yesterday and we went to have an ultrasound to see what was going on. The doctor found no heartbeat. He is pretty sure this just happened a few days ago. Baby looked really good so we don't really know what happened. Right now we are just trying get through the sting of hearing the news. I will be taking a break from blogging but I will probably be back sometime. Don't know how long or how little.

A Change

The past two and a half year have been a roller coaster for us with my husbands job. I have not been a very encouraging wife and the Lord has shown me that in the past week. His schedule is not a typical 9 to 5 which can be difficult if the family doesn't try to accommodate him. I have fought his schedule and have made these last couple of years not the easiest. Last week I started thinking maybe I need to adjust our schedule to work better with daddy's schedule. I didn't know if it would work but I thought I could at least give it a try. Then at church yesterday I sought counsel from an older lady in the church who I have talked with about many issues. She is a Godly woman and loves to minister to us younger women. I shared with her my husbands schedule and the first thing she said was, " Why don't you move your schedule back so you can all have dinner as a family." I thought how hard is it that I have to fight my hubby instead of working with him and encouraging him. She also said," It is our job to help and encourage our husbands and if that means changing our old habit then we do it." Life can be so simple and peaceful if we just listen to our Mighty Lord. I really believe this weekend was conformation of what I need to do in our house. So today we begin our first day of moving everything back about an hour and a half. I know the Lord will bless our family during this transition. Please pray for us as it will be a change for all of us. I was starting my day at 6:30 a.m. and now we are starting at 8:00 a.m. The children will be staying up later and we will be having dinner later. No one said, " we have to have a typical schedule." And is there such a thing?

Dan Ran

My five year old read her second book today and I think mommy is more excited then she is. Every child is different and I am learning this very quickly. When we first started with our phonics program this year both of us seemed to be struggling. I was worried that she might be one that would be hard to teach. I have continued working with her and giving her lots and lots of PRAISE. She is a child that thrives on praise, but I am pretty sure most children are that way. So today she read her second book to me and I am so proud of her. I cover the pictures when they are this age so they don't look at the pictures and get confused.
Here is the book she read.
DAN RAN
Dan.
Bat.
Dan at bat.
Dan ran.
Pat.
Pat at bat.
Pat ran. Dan ran.
Pat! Dan!
Pretty basic but she's got it. Thanks Hooked on Phonics. It has worked for us.

A Typical Monday

Today was most definitely a typical Monday. I don't know what it is about Mondays in this house but it is by far our worst day of the week. It does not matter what I do we can not stay on schedule. The chores seem to always be the last thing getting done, right at the same time that I am trying to get dinner done. School gets done but at a snail's pace. Mommy seems to always be grouchy and has a hard time displaying any fruits of the Spirit. I can say that on Mondays my kids learn a lot about repentance, because I think I am repenting every five minutes for my quick tongue that doesn't know how to say anything nice. So I have decided next week we will get up and give Monday a new name. I haven't decided what to call it but it will not be called Monday.

It Snowed!

Well I woke up this morning just a few minutes ago and looked out my window and to my surprise I saw a little blanket of white snow covering my yard. I can't believe it snowed. As I type this I am watching the little white flurries float down to the ground. It is SNOWING, in October. Get ready Nana and Papa for your first Winter in IOWA.

Chance for snow

O.k. it's not even the middle of Oct. yet and the weather is progressively getting cooler and cooler. Sunday they are calling for a chance of snow. Now it is only a 30% chance but come on give us some time to adjust before we beginning seeing snow flurries. I am beginning to wonder if this is going to be a LONGGGG winter.

No Complaining

Well we finished our week of life skills and for the most part things went pretty well. The weather changed and it has been in the 50's and 60's so I decided we would do our dreaded changing the clothes for the season. This is something I despise. There was one exception this year. I had been talking with my children about us having a cheerful heart at all times, so I knew I would have to have a cheerful heart while going through clothes. The girls immediately started to complain when I told them what are big task for the week was going to be. I stopped them and said, "We will not murmur and complain this year we will just put our hand to it and get it done." Remember we are going to be cheerful when we are serving Him and others. Before we knew it we were finished. It took a day and half, this task normally takes us a good week. I told the girls isn't it much easier when we just set our hand to it and get the task done instead of complaining. I was pretty impressed, no yelling, no fits, and clean and organized rooms. Praise the Lord he does bless those who are diligent.