Today I woke up and couldn't shake this feeling of just feeling blah. I am working on a Bible study right now called "Threads of Hope, Pieces of Joy." It is wonderful and I am so thankful a dear friend of mine gave it to me.
A few women who I know told me that it would get easier as time went by but I would still have days where the sadness would creep up on me. Today I think is one of those. Yesterday I was outside jumping rope with my kids, laughing and really having a great day. Today I just want to lay in bed and cry, which I know I can't. Yesterday as I was doing something with Levi I said to myself, " I am o.k. if I don't have anymore children." Today is a totally different story. Today I want to cry because I wonder if I ever will have anymore. I know that this too shall pass and I will hold on to my verse that promises a Harvest of JOY. Maybe just maybe I will have a good cry and move on with today.
Thanks to all of you have encouraged me with your comments and prayers, and to all of you have stuck by my side through this journey that will someday have an end.